The whisper in my ear...

Hello, Dear One. You have made much progress recently. To truly own your own creative power and know the truth about being a victim is very great indeed. Once you know this truth, truly know it, you feel the joy of your True Self, do you not? When you walk the world among others who do not know, you carry the energy of this joyful awareness with you and without uttering a single word, you will deliver the message that everyone loves to hear -- "You are loved and joy is real and attainable RIGHT NOW!

This act of Being, just walking through your life, consciously placing each step with Joy and Awareness, will be the Light that attracts those who seek. The more you grow in awareness and acceptance of your own Divine Being, the brighter will be your radiance in the world of the mundane. The clearer your Light is as you walk, the clearer will be those drawn to that Light.

Be certain, Dear One, that you are constantly alert for any indication that you are heading to the deep places where you do NOT create "of the light". As you create and flow and walk in and with Light, you find yourself surrounded by seekers like yourself, seeking assistance. These are the ones you are to help Heal and to Teach. These are the ones through which you will fulfill your divine purpose here on Earth. We love you and honor you all. Namaste.

Magical, mystical being...

You are a mystic. Your thoughts run deep and intertwiningly. When one touches the deep stillness within and the quiet joy of knowing the Higher Self, one IS. cab this is the I AM, the essence of Oneness, available to all.

You are a Mystic and may not have this knowledge available for conscious use... yet. Those moments when you touch it, sense it, feel it, those are the moments in which you, without any doubt, watch those around you respond. They respond in wonderful, helpful ways, do they not? The one who goes out of their way to offer you support or assistance, is responding to this radiation from you. This draws out their own connection with that which is greater than themselves, and they offer something to you from that place. A smile, a word, a hand... pay attention to where and who you are in that moment and perpetuate that sense within yourself. It will grow strong enough to stand on its own, without effort on your part.

This is where you will be strongest. This is where the Law of Attraction will serve you best. From this place of energetic wholeness and balance you can bring to you all that you wish in your physical life as well as to your spiritual existence on the planet.

Here, not only will others join you, but also, we can come through more clearly to guide you and teach you what you need to know. Here there is peaceful abandon to that which is Truth, and bringing forth manifestations of joyous experience. Namaste

Supportive words of guidance...

Hello, Dear One. We are so happy about your realizations and healing that we have not adequate expressions for our joy. You are one with us now. You're "channel" as you call it, has never been as clear as at this moment. We have excitement for our journey with you now that you have awakened to your true Self.

As you walk through your life from here, we can and will speak your every step with you. When you see something you may not fully understand, listen and we will tell you what we can about it. When you are required to use language for communication, listen and we will give you the words. When you are approaching the seductive old beliefs, listen and we will tell you what is true. We will show you the light in a situation, whether it be through humor, understanding or just Love.

As you listen more and more to us, you will find all trouble disappears almost before it even begins and all you will have before you is a glorious vision of what is true now and at every instant of your existence. Yes, you ARE all that and more! Some of this is outside your vibrational ability just now. Here's where your faith, your believe in the things of the light will hold you up above the darkness which would pull you back "down" vibrationally, so you can manifest all you could wish for.

Not without a challenge in your heart do you come to this place, but you shall burst forth from the challenge as you have done so already. This challenge will feel so small as a bite from the tiniest of creatures because you are standing tall in the strength and power of the reality which is who you really are and why you are really in existence on the planet at this time and place.

You are light, and now you know that others have not this awareness, nor can you give it to them, just let them feel you in this state and love them where they are with understanding and forgiveness. That does not mean except what they do in their state as right or good, it just is.

And you, having let go all attachment to the rules can and will be a beacon to those in the darkness who long for some light. Namaste.

A poem...

In a quiet moment
my heart expands of its own
embracing all that I am
or ever will be.
In that moment, I know
and feel the desire
to step upon the ways
of energy and travel far
amid all the other souls
to whom I am connected
as if we are all one entity.
Inter-dependent and whole
yet able to learn independently
of one another, while sharing
our burdens, lightning our load.
Touching one another gently
in the space of no time or place
on the level of our awakened Selves.
In connection to God, like mist
above a pond, both are water
and will eventually join, but for a while
they have different states.

World Issues...

Sometimes there is a need in the world for that which does not suit you, but which many others need, such as religious rules. Spiritual growth and connection directly with God is not an easy goal for many, especially Americans. The American culture, although originating with religious freedom, has become very controlling since then. There is so much neurotic believe around God and what God is, that it often has little room for a personal experience of God.

People are convinced they must deny and bury anything within themselves that is not prescribed in the rules of their chosen religion. Some who would behave in ways that violate or harm others may need to do this, but the average human living in America, the United States, does not. What they need is to feel safe enough to begin to explore God and what that means now, in this time, not 2000 years ago.

There is much fear-mongering in this culture, and it is used for everything from selling aspirin to promoting, or more often trying to tear down, politicians and their parties. Fear and sex are used to sell quite often, although there is a new model will slowly emerging.

This new model uses humor, and quite often an aspect of spirit or spirituality to reach people.
Now Yoga, Alternative Healing, Meditation and the like, are part of the majority vocabulary in some way. Awareness of things that science cannot prove as real is blossoming in the average American psyche.

People will often say they believe in things they don't voice. They don't voice it, especially when it may be a little different, fearing suppression or rejection. They may even deny they have the belief and strive even harder to adhere to the tenets of their religion. So those who step out and wish to express God in their lives and God's love, understanding, forgiveness and peace as their way of experiencing the world, are brave. To step out in tolerance, acceptance and joy is going against the grain in many areas of the country. All who can do this and bring that much more light into the world, enough to cause transformation.

Keep up the good work! Namaste.

Inside Out...

Just notice what goes on inside: the little thoughts that pass through, nearly unnoticed, but for the somewhat slimy trail they leave behind. AND how they seem to churn up a dust cloud of feelings you didn’t know you had. Your reactions are nearly uncontrollable and instantaneous.

Then you notice what is going on inside and realize your reactions are yours to define as are your thoughts. Oh, it may not FEEL like it, especially when the thought and reactions feel a little negative and un-serving. But, once this particular light begins to power up in your psyche, the awarenesses will be clearer and you will be more open to change as the light shines on what is really in there and you gain understanding and clarity around your own processes.

Once this begins to happen, there is no holding you back. Go forth with Love and the loving flashlight of God, into the depths of your unconscious and there shine the Light on all the old, slimy things that hide there. You may be surprised at just how easy this task turns out to be, once you take the first step without fear and in trust that you are beloved of God.

This vehicle of yours will be shed one day and you will reunite with God and all you have learned will be shown and shared and honored and Loved. Knowing that, how could any of us regard ourselves and our processes with anything less? You don’t even need to do anything if you choose not to.

You are loved unconditionally, you are the only one who judges you, you know. You will say “but so & so down the street, at work, at home, pelts me with judgments all the time!” We say, change your perspective. If you weren’t judging you first and hardest, you would not be so affected by someone else projecting their own self-judgment onto you, now would you?

All is one, therefore loving yourself first is essential and creates ripples out into the world, creating change. Loving yourself first is essential to loving anyone else. Try it, you’ll like it! Namaste

Weather Report...

Each day is a challenge, you know. A challenge to walk straight and tall whatever the "weather" is around you. The emotional "weather" you step into wherever you go affects you. Just how it affects you is up to you. Hold your understanding close before your mind with each step. Feel your own self-love, compassion and understanding and others will feel 'something' when you come around. If you ever have a doubt around this, take a moment to consciously remember and connect to it. Then you can step back into the 'fray' in a strong and confident way. The more you do this, the less the "world" will affect your moods. Namaste

Response-ability

There are many who get so caught up in the terror of life, who are so afraid to live, who feel they can't make changes in their life, that they decide to leave life. These are the ones you cannot help, except to give them loving energy and hope they can accept and feel it. The archetype of the Tormented Young Man or Woman is rife, in the society of the West particularly. Their angst seems unrelieve-able, and indeed it is because they are so caught up in the storm and don't understand there is no help to be found outside themselves. This combined with their unwillingness or inability to take responsibility for their own condition makes their life something to be despised and thwarted, by them, at every turn. The Understanding or belief that you ARE in control of what goes on within you is not something the average person, cut off from Source, can grasp.

Only when connection with The Source, Universal Oneness, God, something Greater Than Self, whatever you would call it, is known, only then can responsibility for your inner self be taken. For without this connection, there are no assurances, no energy, and no support for the awakening of a person.

Awakening the ones ignorant of the light within themselves, is a gentle, passive process which may or may not flower in their life. Never have attachment of what someone else is manifesting in their life, even when it affects yours. The only thing in your control is you, your responses and reactions and how you manifest your own life. Manifest ways in which you will be protected from the fallout from another's life choices by, say, an umbrella of Love. Then carry this umbrella of Love everywhere with you... Maybe galoshes of Love as well! This energetic protective 'clothing' will work wonders for you. Just imagine that anything that comes your way energetically that does not serve you, is reflected in a loving way back to the sender and transmuted so that it will serve them for their highest good.

Sometimes you believe that "for my highest good" could mean something "bad" and that you should just accept this. Do you realize that if you BELIEVE this, then this is what will happen? Why not change your belief to "...highest good..." equals joyful experiences?

There are so many deeply embedded negative beliefs that it will take conscious effort to turn yourself around. However, it CAN be done and is a very real and close possibility in your life. So get on with it. Begin loving your life and all the people in it, granting understanding for where you and others are in this moment and forgiveness for any 'fallout' from yourself or others.

You have the power, accept it, work with it, change your perspective, and the puzzle will come together on its own.

Namaste

Monday Morning Guidance

There are times when life seems to drag along with the weight of responsibilities hanging on. This feeling will be paramount and overwhelming and can engender a kind of panic over how to do it all. You can't do it all. Unless, that is, you are grounded spiritually. Over time, you will notice, if you have a daily dharma, things will seem to flow more effortlessly that you imagined they would. A solid foundation built by feeding your spirit a little or a lot every day gives power to your strengths and abilities. You are then able to approach your life and responsibilities from a standpoint of strength and confidence. In this strength and confidence you will find ways to be and do and how to determine what NOT to be and do.

Some things that had once been so important now seem unnecessary and only add superfluous work to your life. These things have no real value in themselves for your life, they only hold you in the past and retard your forward motion. Sometimes they will be physical things, sometimes habits and behaviors, but always they will be hereafter unsatisfying for you. One example is wine. This habit has been a part of your life for a long time and has attached to it the memory of escape and release from daily stress. You notice it is not working anymore, don't you? Having a glass with dinner is fine, in fact anytime you have it is fine. Except -- you are noticing how you feel - how you are unable to be wholly present with something you want to accomplish, aren't you?

It is just like when you gave up the other substance so long ago because you knew you wouldn't progress under its influence. Same with alcohol, your body cannot tolerate it as well anymore, not that it ever really did. You are advancing energetically and spiritually and your body has to go with you on this journey. Be aware of what compromises its well being and pay attention and do something about it, or stop doing whatever it is.

Be strong, decisive and determined about this and you WILL receive great benefit. Namaste

May 11, 2006

Sometimes overwhelm is all I see...

I am in the process of letting go of material attachment -- those parts of me that are afraid of the unknown. I mean, without material attachment, what is there? Those deep parts of me are frantic to keep me in attachment and dancing so fast there won't be time to do the spiritual practices that would allow me to move on. I must be patient with myself, see the bigger picture, where my progress is ever forward, slow but steady and sure. I must take a step back and look at it all from the bigger perspective. Then I will see how far I've come and be able to relax into the process without pushing or pulling.

It's an Amazing Life!

I was thinking about the movie "It's a Wonderful Life" and all its implications for me...

The movie of my life would be "It's an Amazing Life" because when I play the movie in my head, I shake my head. There have been some truly dreadful periods to get through and I did indeed survive and grow.

The best part is how synchronistic my life has been. Whenever I truly needed something or someone, it or they showed up in my life. I have never had to go hungry or sleep outdoors (except on camping trips) and I have always had Love, even when I didn't know it. I have many gifts and I am able to share them.

So many teachers are out there for us these days, when we are ready we just need reach out our hand and pluck one from the bookshelf or the CD rack. I love audiobooks and just finished listening to Richard Gere read the latest from His Holiness the Dalai Lama. Double Bonus! I highly recommend it to all and sundry, it is wonderful and enlightening. It is "The Universe in a Single Atom : The Convergence of Science and Spirituality""
and you can get it here.

Other teachers who are also highly entertaining and therefore easy to listen to or read: Wayne Dyer, Carolyn Myss, Deepak Chopra.

Namaste to you, RoHun

April 23, 2006

A conversation...

Query: I'm feeling a bit inadequate just now, will you please talk to me?

This is what every good therapist will go through, it will stop some, but many keep going through to the other side of these limitations and issues, as will you. We watch you and are excited about your work. We will not always allow you to sit in this feeling, but for now, you must explore the limits of it and all the ways that its can bring you or others to a complete halt. However, you cannot do this for long, you are our star pupil at the moment. You feel a dedication to the work like few others. You believe in yourself when you are working, there are no doubts then, we know.

You must decide how you order your life, yes, but you have time. Remember, the idea of Triune (body, mind, spirit) balance? We gave that to you and you received the energy of it on all levels. So... there are a lot of habits you have that limit your care of yourself. Care for Self is imperative for you to be strong enough to care for others. And also so you can follow through on your work as it is now laid out before you. You know what to do and how to do it, yet you will resist, why? You cannot just float through your days following your inner child's whims and wishes. Yet you continue to feel as if loving and caring for your body and spirit is something imposed upon you by someone outside yourself.

Take responsibility for your health on all levels and then you will be able to guide others in their own self-care. You help them now, but when you break through this resistance, you will be able to do so much more than you ever imagined.

Take care and always and know that we will help you all we can, but you have to do the bulk of it yourself, for your Self. Namaste.

Random Thoughts...

This is a picture of my friend and I at her Mom's wedding--->

I have been having the experience of being off from work because of an injury... There are a lot of things I have come to understand during this time... Some days I am so tired of the 'push' toward anything metaphysical that I just want to lay down and watch movies and not have to think about anything! It is sometimes a wearying struggle within myself to get to the point of acceptance of myself and my experiences in the world... I can whine all I want to whomever would listen and believe it or not, some will... I remind myself to chose carefully the cheese to go with my whine {smile}... I do not feel weak or alone or despairing or anything really at all negative, I am just tired of the push at the moment... toward clinical certification, toward Doctorate work, toward enlightenment...toward making my body stronger... It is also a fairly dreary day, the kind when it is really nice to curl up with my cat and my knitting and just 'be' for a while, with nowhere to go and nothing to do... Maybe later, right now I must go write up more session evals for my certification, which although I am very excited about getting, I am also 'over' how much work it is! Love & Light, RoHun

April 16, 2006

Maintained daily meditations, you will notice habits changing so let them change. You have a new way to be now, that includes your Triune balance -- Body, Mind and Spirit -- so do something for each part, every day! Note how you are giving and receiving in each area.

April 14, 2006

From the Angels... We want everyone to know their connections with the things they cannot see. They are very real, but free will is a very strange and convoluted thing. We are eager and willing to help, and the Guardian Angels are always with everyone. The Angels send messages, and you sometimes hear them and stay out of trouble. Mostly we can't help unless we are asked. Your choices determine what help we are able to give. If on any given day you choose to believe in your physical reality and close off your mind to us, it is the way we have to leave it, even if you have been connected to us before. Always remember to start your day thinking of us and intending that the connection be there, that you be aware all day every day of our guidance. Intend that we are allowed and able to provide you with whatever you need to get through your day.

April 13, 2006

Some days are more difficult than others. Be patient. You feel a dread of returning to work, that is natural. Just know you will be returning not to drudgery, but to Light Work. Your presence is needed in that place where the morale is low and the light is dim. Your work on yourself must continue and you must continually work to avoid the resurgence of old habits. You are too important. Light Workers who dwell with darkness have the hardest task in the world. Just know that by perfecting yourself with your awareness and usage of your Light within, you will raise the awareness and morale of those around you. Namaste.

April 11, 2006

Healing, wherever it comes from, is good. A healer can do amazing things for you, just remember, you have to be ready to release the cause first. Until you get to that point, no one can "cure" you. It starts with making peace with, and sending love to, your past and all who were associated with those issues in any way. Then a healer can "fix" you. Either way, if you do this work for yourself. You will be "better".

April 10, 2006

There is a measure of reality that you are beginning to realize and that is that the yardstick you need to use must come only from within you. Those around you may or may not have the same means of expressing that measure as you do. Never use another's measure to determine the reality of your own experiences.

You are sane and awake, and that is not a condition shared by many who surround you at this time. Always go back to the ones who do (share your condition) for respite after spending time with ones who do not. In this manner, shall you strengthen yourself and show others how to be strong within themselves. Namaste.

April 5, 2006

A quiet place.

There is a quiet place within a where thoughts float away on gentle breezes and the language of all things is understood by the heart. Here there is peace and serenity and total freedom to feel Joy and Love. Healings seeps in and soothes all the way to the bone's center like a warm sun after the chilly shadows. Rest here a while, feel the peace, joy and freedom, accept the healing, it is all yours by right. Revel in it. Allow serenity to ease all strain and stress and tension... Relax and enjoy this quiet place, it will give you respite from the noisy world.

Meditations - week 4

Loving I looking at Presence: My Presence is dressed comfortably. She looks attractive but a little frumpy, a little overweight and out of shape physically. Overweight and under-exercised. She seems excited and willing, but a little concerned. I sense some self doubt about her and impatience with herself “getting the learning”. She seems really sweet and has a wonderful smile. Although I see some self doubt in her eyes, she sends love easily and I can tell the love is really there for her.

The positive aspects I observed: __ Loving, sweet, and smart, able to send love truly, she is attractive and able to dress and do things for her comfort, not just to please others or live by their standards.___

The negative aspects I observed: ___ some self doubt and concern over ability to do ‘this’ = purpose lurking under the surface, as well as some impatience.____

I feel my Presence is: __ Presence is in general ok, but somewhat dissatisfied with her physical health and her dedication to keeping her body healthy, well, she seems dissatisfied with her dedication in general.__

The first thing my “Loving “I” is going to help my Presence with is: ___ give her loving support to follow through on the guidance she’s been given for her life on her path, help her feel love and caring for herself so she will want to ‘take care’ of herself with her daily practices.______

The written assignment is twofold:

1. “Be awake and aware…of great experiences…” I didn’t remember some days to say it was a great day as I awoke, but I managed to say it at some point during the day. I noticed a lot of great experiences each day, some of them even look small and insignificant at first glance, but they were Great nonetheless. This was kinda fun, noticing all the Great Experiences in my day.

2. “Feelings about Presence and how Loving I helped…” I did notice that although I generally felt pretty good about my Presence, the creativity and generosity, I did notice some laziness and lack of motivation during this time. My Loving I helped my feel good about myself and my situation. In moments where I felt unwarranted guilt, she helped me let it go and realize what I was doing and to feel love for myself. She was close and as I did RoHun Sessions, she supported me and helped me maintain the loving energy. I felt calmer this week and more at peace with myself and I think this was her influence.

Day 1

I find the Mother waiting for me. She looks deeply into my eyes and I can see her eyes. She sends me love, and I send her love, and it feels really good. It is a whole body experience… She reaches down by her feet and picks up a soft cloth bag and puts it on her lap. She puts both her hands in this bag and lifts out a beautiful diamond. Its facets are amazing and there is so much light in it. She holds it out to me and I take it in my hands. I can feel its shape and at first it is cool, but as the sun shines into it it warms up. It feels warm in my hands. The facets are so big I can almost see reflections of myself as I look into it. She says this is who you truly are. You hold in your hands a solid form of the light that is you, that is why you can almost see yourself in it. Because you are very close to being able to ‘see’ who you truly are. These words just fill me… and I feel it strongly and my eyes leak. Even if my mind doesn’t completely grasp the full impact, my body knows it. I thank her with all my heart. She feels my gratitude because she knows my true heart. I ask her what I am supposed to do with it, how will it help me? “Carry it with you always. Carry it right next to your heart. It will be a lens, both for what comes into you and what goes out of you into the world. Its clarity and perfection will allow you to see with clarity and the perfection of love. Both what you are putting out and what you are receiving.” Again my body gets a rush from this information and I feel full.

Now she takes my hand and we walk in the meadow in the sun. I ask her what do I do now, what’s next? She tells me to go back and extract the advice that I got from my meditations before and make a list. I will see how a plan of action for me is in that list. She tells me to relax, that I have to learn to walk before I can run and I keep trying to run before I know how. She tells me my impatience is not exactly a virtue. She says this with a chuckle and a smile and lovingly. She says “There is oneness in you and sometimes you let yourself feel it. That is part of your gift of empathy, your sensitivity that lets you be part of the oneness.” She continues talking to me about how I spent so many years without understanding it that I created habit patterns of running away from it and not embracing it. I must embrace it with clarity, with devotion, with my knowledge now of what is and is not mine. I am not a victim anymore, buffeted here and there by what comes into me. I now can filter it effectively and respond accordingly by sending love and light were I sense negative emotions. This is also part the gift of the diamond.

We lay in the warm grass in the meadow, looking at sun and the clouds, holding hands. I feel very happy, I feel a sense of joy well up in me. I get up and start laughing and running and twirling and swirling and playing in the meadow. I am in just happy abandon. I am going around in circles around her where she sits watching me with a smile on her face. When I stop and come back to her she stands up and stands behind me and puts her arms around me, holding me as I lean back against her. She is very tall and my head is on her shoulder and we stand and watch the sunset together.

Day 2

The meadow with the tree has been with me for a very long time. At first it was just the meadow. In a special meditation one day the tree appeared then more recently the bench appeared under the tree. I could feel and smell the bark of the tree and feel the cement of the bench. Today the bench changed into cool white marble, beautifully carved. It is very nice.

Buddha is waiting for me, laughing. He looks kinda Middle Eastern. He tells me “Sit, sit.” So I sit on the beautiful cool marble bench. At first I think he is sitting on a very high stack of pillows because he is lotus position and our eyes are level. Then I realize he is sitting on one cushion, floating in mid-air. I feel some amusement at this, I think partly because he obviously does. As I am looking into his lovely brown eyes and feeling love, he tells me to remember my most recent RoHun Client and tell him what happened there in that room with her. I told him I helped her go inside and touch and connect with and clear the things that were blocking her. He said “Yes. Now when is the last time you did that for yourself?” I had to admit it has been a while because there has been so much happening that it gets put aside. He tells me that although every day would be nice, but I should have a commitment to myself to at least once a week do RoHun processes and 7 visions meditation. I should meditate a little every day, but be careful of my goals and my commitments and be sure they are realistic.

He says I have a gift for you. He reaches into a little pouch at his belt and pulls out a gem the size of my fist. It is a garnet or ruby, a beautiful deep clear red. He hands it to me and I feel it in my hand. I cup it in my two hands. I ask him what does the gem mean and what am I to use it for. He says “That is the natural state of your Root. Now breathe on it so that your breath clouds the surface.” I did and saw that now it was cloudy, not clear and you couldn’t really see the light in it. He says “That is your Root chakra for most of every day. When you meditate spend some time visualizing your Root chakra as having this clear, sparkly, beautiful red quality that this gem has. This gem is an example of what to aim for; this is what you should see there. This gem has that highest vibration in it; I am giving you this vibration.” I am to hold it in my hands in my lap at my Root and meditate on the sparkly red light, just looking at it, nothing more demanding than that. I clearly see this beautiful sparkling gem in my Root chakra, and hold it there. I thank him. I put the gem in a pouch that appears hanging from my waist and it hangs right at my Root chakra. Then he takes my hands and we sit, knee to knee, eye to eye. As we sit we have this circular energetic connection thing going: I breathe in his love and light through my eyes and breathe out my love and light to him through my Heart and he sends through his eyes and receives through his Heart. There is a little filter/lens between my eyes and my Heart. Whatever I breathe in through my eyes must pass through this filter/lens to be sent out through my Heart. When what I take in with my eyes is of the light, of love and goodness, the filter becomes transparent to it. If what I take in through my eyes is negative or hurtful, then the filter/lens changes and as those things pass through this filter, they are transformed into love and light and I send them out my Heart… Right back to their source/origin. This feels really beautiful. He is teaching me a technique I need to use in my life. This filter is in my High Heart, it is my High Heart that does the filtering.

What else do I need to know? He says “Be strong. You are destined to do great things. Even though some of those great things may not look like what your culture teaches you great things should look like. Just know that as you do everything you do for God, everything you do is a great thing and is to be honored.” I feel very moved and I just sit for a long time feeling the power of this very simple statement.

Day 3

Buddha is waiting for me, I kind of expected the Mother, but it is Buddha. He looks like the Dalai Lama, probably because I just read an article about him. He looks so happy, I can’t help but smile and I feel a giggle welling up inside me. As he looks at me I feel his love and his compassion. He says “I am here today to tell you about Love in Action.” I send him my love and compassion and respect. There is such a strong undercurrent of joy with him it is almost like the feeling of being a little kid. Like at any moment he is going to break out in giggles. I feel it so strongly I almost want to laugh out loud. That energetic feeling of wanting to get up and do something just for the joy of doing it. I hear the words “All I do, I do for God”. Those words become attached to this feeling of joy. He says he has a gift for me. He reaches up into thin air, grabs something, pulls it down and holds it out in his hands. I look at it and I see a pen. It is kind of a combination modern pen with a quill pen with a big fluffy white feather. I take the pen and put it behind my ear. I say ok, I accept. What does this gift mean and what am I to do with it? He says “your channeling is very strong and clear. The things you get are very important for your enlightenment.” Every day I am to channel with writing, even if it is only one sentence. Every single day I am to channel and not let that avenue within me close from lack of use. This last was said with some wry amusement from him.

I ask what my purpose is this life: he says I am to spread the knowing that I get. I am to share my channeling with other people. He wants me to use modern technology to ‘spread the word’. He reminds me that I have a Web Log and he wants me to put them there and put a link to them on my web site and I should have an e-mail newsletter. I am getting all this in pictures and I have to translate into words.

I send him thanks with all my heart and ask what more I need to know to help with my enlightenment. He tells me to RoHun my fear. He reaches out and puts his hand on my Heart chakra. I feel him sending love and healing into my Heart chakra. I feel it loosen and relax and expand. He puts his other hand on my Brow chakra with his fingers connecting my brow to my crown. I feel like he is connecting my heart and my mind. I can feel the energy flowing back and forth between his hands, through me. As I look into his eyes I feel like he is talking to my spirit, my higher self, communicating understanding and peace and love. My forehead is getting hot. At this point I realize it is the 8^th chakra, between my Brow and Crown, where he has his hand because that is where it is getting hot. We sit like this for a long time. He is smiling and kind of half nodding at me as if to say “Yes, yes…” There are no words, just sensation of flow and of fullness and release (at this point I burped).

Then he sits back, puts his hand in prayer position in front of his face and forehead and bows to me a little, saying Namaste. I return with Namaste. We just sit and look at each other and I feel his presence. I like this feeling a lot. I feel something in me say “Yes! This is what I have been looking for!” I breathe it in deeply.

Day 4

The Mother is here waiting for me. She is dressed like the Catholic Blessed Mother, only the blue is darker. I feel a sense of playfulness and joy and happiness with her. She brushes my hair and I can actually feel the tingles on my scalp as if a brush was passed through my hair. With each stroke, I can feel the gentleness of her touch. When she is done, she braids my hair for me and ties it with a pretty ribbon. She sits down in front of me and as we look into each other’s eyes, I feel relaxed and calm and at peace. I feel her loving me and my Heart chakra feels open and warm. We just sit like this for a while.

She says; “oh yes, I have a gift for you” and laughs. She pulls out this beautiful, silky, cloak-like thing with a hood and it is a beautiful purple with a multicolored, shimmery look to it. It feels wonderful, I can feel the weight of it but it’s not too heavy. She says; “this is the mantle of a master. You will notice it is just a little too big for you, but you are growing into it more every day. Whenever your thoughts turn to self-doubt, close your eyes and feel this mantle on your head and shoulders, feel the soft weight of it, feel the beauty of it”. At the neck is a clasp that looks like a heart, a beautiful ruby shaped like a heart, with silver star-rays radiating out from it’s setting.

We sit down and she is holding my hands, and I ask her; “Mother, what is my purpose in this life?” She says my purpose is to reach my full potential, and manifest the Light in my life and help to show others how to manifest the light in their lives. She is showing a lot of pictures of how this is to done; I see a flash of me in front of a group; in the healing room doing RoHun; at my job… I am there and radiating light like a star. I see myself at the grocery store and the bank and each picture is absolutely worth 1000 words each. Each one shows me the best possible me in any given situation.

She tells me that I am on the right path; I just have to pay attention to how I allow myself to be sidetracked and correct my direction. Now we just sit and I feel her love and we share love back and forth for a long time.

Then we stand up holding hands and the scene changes around us. We are floating through the stars… I can se the Pleiades. I can see galaxies everywhere. It all feels so huge and wonderful. She brings me back down and we are in the meadow again. She reminds me that I am a part of all that is. No matter what other people may say, this is Truth, this is my Truth. I should allow people to have their own limitations but don’t allow them to force them onto me. She wants me to be strong in my knowledge, strong in my faith, and to have courage and determination and devotion. The more I do this, every day, the more whole I will become. Then we just sit together a while.

Day 5

I notice I don’t just walk along the path this time, I am skipping and trotting. I get to the tree and I feel the roughness of the bark and smell the bark and see the patterns of the bark. I sit and feel the cool hardness of the beautiful marble bench, feel its polished smoothness and the beautiful delicacy of the carvings around the edge. I feel the coolness and softness of the grass on the bottoms of my feet. I smell the meadow smells and listen to birds in the trees and the breeze in the tops of the trees.

I look and see Buddha sitting in front of me lotus style so I sit lotus in front of him. I look at him and feel his presence wash over me. I can see the colors of his chakras. They are beautiful and clear. I see and feel as each of his chakras connects to each of mine filling my body with that energy. As I sit in this energy and breath it in, I hear the words in my head; “I Am that I Am… I AM THAT I AM”. I can feel my physical body vibrating. I become aware of my heartbeat, very strong. The energy pulses with my heartbeat. As I look into his eyes I feel the feeling of joy and laughter welling up deep inside me. I am smiling now, my physical self is smiling. Now the lights fade and he looks at me with his head cocked to the side a little bit and looks directly into my eyes. After a few moments, I nod. I am answering an unspoken question. I don’t even know what the question is, but I find myself nodding to him in response, both in the meditation and physically.

He asks me if I am ready for my gift and I say yes, master, I am ready. I feel emotion well up in me as I say those words. He stands up and turns his back to me for a moment. When he turns around he has in his hands he has a sword. When I see it, my eyes overflow and I feel a fullness. There is something about this sword that touches the depths inside of me. The sword is beautiful and looks ornamental. The blade is made of light, so bright and shiny. The hilt perfectly fits my hand and is studded with diamonds, rubies, emeralds, and sapphires, but mostly diamonds. When I hold it though, it is warm and soft and comfortable in my hands. It is a very delicate but strong sword. I look at him questioningly and ask what is this, why do I feel it so strongly? What am I to do with it, how will it help me? He says this is the sword of Truth. It is another Wand of Light, but more… When I hold this up in front of me or visualize it in meditation, if there is anything I am dealing with, this will be able to cut through it and get to the core of the issue. The light of its blade will bring light into any situation.

He takes my hand with the sword in it and lays it against my body and the sword touches each chakra from my root to my crown. He tells me to breathe it in; breathe it in, all the way in. This will help me connect the Kundalini, from my root to the crown, it is my truth. All the diamonds and rubies and gems on the haft are: Devotion, Discernment, Lift and Thrust; the energy of those things for me. They are placed at my root chakra and my spleen chakra. I am to breathe it in and to breathe the light and energy all the way up the blade every day. It rests in front of my spine and Ida and Pingala wrap around it to hold it in place. I can see this as clearly as if it was a movie, and I can FEEL it! He steps back and we bow with hands in prayer position, honoring each other. I feel so honored in this moment, and am very moved. I feel awe and wonder.

I ask; Master, what is my purpose in this lifetime? He tells me to sit and he will tell me and gestures me to sit on my beautiful white bench. As I look around, I notice now that my meadow and tree and bench have become part of the arboretum that is in my temple. Now we are sitting in this new place in my temple with the sun shining down through the glass walls and ceiling. He tells me “You will clear your blocks and then teach others how to clear their blocks. Wherever you are, whatever you are doing, your purpose is to be whole and to teach others how to be whole. You will do this through healing and through classes and teachings. Be strong and have an unassailable Faith in, and Knowledge of, your Self.” I feel this, I FEEL it. My Heart chakra feels wide open and very, very warm. I feel the breaths I am taking going in and out of my Heart chakra. The words that I speak resonate in my Heart chakra. My thoughts seem to be coming from there as well.

Now he takes my hand and we walk through the arboretum to stand in front of my altar. This is a beautiful cathedral like space in the side of the mountain with light coming from overhead so that the altar is lit up. It looks like a Catholic sanctuary space, but it isn’t. He shows me where the altar was bare there are now my gifts: my sword, my mantle, the quill pen and the diamond and ruby I was given. On the wall behind the altar is a bas relief of Mary, Jesus, Buddha and Krishna with a radiating sun above them, shining down on them. In the space between the bas relief and the altar, they are standing, and Buddha walks around and takes his place with the other three. As I watch, they merge with the bas relief of themselves on the wall and it glows. I hear them all say; “We are always here, inside your Heart, inside your Temple. We are always here…”

WOW!

Summary

The answers I get to my questions this week seem a little simpler than what I got last week. But what I feel as I am receiving the information is even more intense and very powerful. At one point my eyes were leaking and I got so hot I broke out in a sweat, there was so much energy. I felt like something was happening in all of my fields at once.

The meditations were so engaging that I became totally engrossed in them. When I finished I was always surprised to find I stayed in them longer than ever and it only seemed like a few iminutes.

I would ‘forget’ what was said the day before when I went into meditation, so each one was not ‘colored’ by the day before. As I read over what I have written, I notice that once again I am getting very similar messages each time, with a little more or different information added. This was an amazing experience! Ia know when the time is right for me, I will move to the next level of this study.

Thank you so much, Patricia. I truly enjoyed the experience!

Meditations - week 3

The written assignment is “Be aware of resistance…” As far as negative forces of resistances go, they manifested strongly for me. For the first meditation, I couldn’t get to it and I put it off and put it off until the last possible moment that I could do it and still call it the first day meditation. I finally said to myself “Just DO it already”.

The next day, I noticed that I was more able to stand by my decision to do it. I was also able to sit in the meditation room. (the seating was inappropriate for my back pain, which feels better at this point) The energy and environment in this room is much more conducive to meditation than the living room.

On the 3^rd day, my mind kept jumping, a little more than the last time, but I was able to breathe it back pretty easily.

I noticed that when I couldn’t seem to get started, there were other things to do and I would get involved in… well, for example, my web site really looks great!! (www.PerspectivesHolistic.com ) They were all things that needed to be done. My bills are all up to date, etc. etc. I was just letting myself get drawn away from doing the meditation. What is so hard about sitting and being quiet? I think part of it has something to do with the “must write” factor of it that I am somehow using to deter myself. This goes hand in hand with the test taking/paper writing anxiety I feel. The thought of having to write it down is just… having that writing evaluated it just… apparently very frightening to me. So, I am just doing it. I turned off the phones and I am just doing it. Because, as you said, ‘no pressure’, so I realize this is all just my ‘drag’ and ‘weight’, so I relax and focus on my devotion.

I am amazed at the struggle I am experiencing this week with the idea of meditating. Once I start doing it it’s wonderful and I enjoy it and I get a lot out of it. It is the beginning it, the doing it… I am just stunned by the strength of my resistance.

Mostly I feel like I just suddenly get decisive about it and make it happen. So I guess that is my spiritual thrust. Inside myself I want to get past, through, over, around, under or whatever, these things that hold me back from wholly embracing my devotion! I am moving from thinking “I have to…” to “I love to…”, and that is making all the difference. That is also spiritual thrust, I suppose, changing my perspective.

Day 1 – 3/13/06

The door is Indigo blue. The Mother is here with me now, looking a lot like a hippie from the 70’s. We sit and commune. Mother tells me, of course she will help me, she is always with me.

When I ask what I must know, she tells me “you must understand why you are afraid. More appropriately, understand what makes you afraid. What are you afraid of? And you must actively choose Strength over Fear, choose Faith over Doubt, and choose Action over Procrastination. You must choose to have a clear mind, affirm your clear mind. Fear only clouds and deludes your thinking and practice.”

I say “I feel like I am floundering here, like I am missing the punch line, not getting the point of the joke. I feel like I am running, running, running, running, but not getting anywhere. I read all these beautiful words and I don’t feel that they ‘stick’ to me. I feel like I am slippery, like glass or Teflon, and all these beautiful words just slide right off the surface and nothing ‘sticks’.” Mother just smiles and takes me in her arms and holds me. She’s holding me and she’s rocking me… She says “You don’t have to worry about anything. There is nowhere to go and nothing to do, just be. Be in the moment. And I feel very loved. The pain that had tightened around my heart peels away.

We stand up; she takes my hand and leads me up some stairs, stone stairs, to a beautiful circular pool filled with clear water. I realize I am naked as she asks me to step into the water. The water is warm and soothing and it feels soooo good on my skin. I feel like layers and layers and layers of dirt are washing off. I feel like I am becoming clean again. She combs my hair and I am just floating in this amazing water. It feels so good, so warm and soft. I look up at the sky and see the tree branches overhead. Of course, this is an outside pool, just big enough for me. I see the clouds in the sky and I watch them drift by. The sun is shining and it is a beautiful, perfect day. I just rest in the water. After resting for a while in the water, I begin to feel waves of gratitude washing over me. I thank God and the Universe for all the opportunities I have been presented, all the second chances I have been given. I remember an affirmation I was given recently for my healing: “I thank God and I thank the Universe that every day I am given a choice between a grievance and a miracle and I choose the miracle.”

As I lie in the water, Mother is combing my hair, stroking my head and talking to me. It is more like she is talking to me with feelings and impressions and pictures than with her words sometimes. She tells me not to be so hard on myself, that every little step I make in the right direction is a miracle in itself. She wants me to see that I have made many big steps in the right direction. She wants me to see that, to feel it, to know it. She tells me she is always at my side. No matter what is going on around me, she is always with me. She says I have to be ok with being human because I am human, I am here to be human. I need to accept and love myself in my humanness. Being human means having issues sometimes. Being human means being hungry. Being human means having some bad habits. Being human means being human. I need to divest myself of the idea that I am not allowed to be human, that it isn’t a good thing to be human. There is a level of disgust and loathing that underlies my ideas and thoughts about being human and these thoughts cause me suffering and pain. These thoughts keep me at a distance from other human beings. I can’t love them and forgive them their ignorance, because of these thoughts of myself. She tells me to be patient, now that I know these thoughts are there, I can find them and heal them.

She lifts me out of the water and wraps a beautiful towel around me. She stands and holds my shoulders and looks deeply into my eyes. She tells me how special I am and how much she loves me. She touches my face and kisses my forehead and tells me everything is going to be ok. She leads me over to a soft couch which looks a lot like a little bed of grass. Here she lays me down and touches my cheek and tells me to rest, just close my eyes and rest. Then she sits and holds my hand for a long time.

Day 2 - 3/14/06

The door is a beautiful dark red. I enter and the room is lit up with rainbow lights. She comes to me and she is dressed in light yellow wrap-around robes with a white underdress and a light yellow headcloth. She sits down and takes my hands and I feel such a rush of love! I am trying to see her eyes and tell her ‘I want to see your eyes. She tells me to look in the mirror and I will see her eyes. I feel another rush of love through my heart center as she says this. I ask her if she will help me. She says, “Of course I will, I am always by your side. Open your heart, you will feel me there.” I tell her I need to have her example to know how to act because sometimes it feels very difficult to be in the world. I want to be more loving, more in right action, right thought and those ideas. She says “I am always there, the only time you can’t feel me is when you turn inward with your dance of anger and fear and close the door of your heart.”

The first thing I must know today… I am shown a tableau of my work environment. At home and with my friends, I am not challenged to express my true nature, it comes easily there. But in my work environment and out in the world among the ignorant is when it is a challenge to express my true nature.

She shows me this tableau and I see each person clearly. Above each one’s head is a little cloud of words. This little cloud of words follows them around wherever they go. These are faulty thoughts, limiting thoughts and beliefs, controlling thoughts and beliefs of these people. They, in their ignorance, hold the clouds to themselves and carry them everywhere. For some of them, the little cloud has gotten so full and heavy it hangs on their backs like a sack. They trudge along under its weight.

I see myself as a light bulb in that place and I am putting light into those clouds. And the light pushes some of the words out and they go floating off into the universe… Sometimes these people will grab them at the first opportunity and put them back into their sacks/clouds, but sometimes they won’t. Sometimes the sack gets lighter and lighter.

I felt a lot of emotion watching this scene. During the process of me being a light there, I suffer with having to put my true self out onto a platter and sometimes people will cut it up. I don’t know yet how to not suffer this sad painful experience. Mother tells me to get stronger in myself, choose to believe in myself. I am to choose to believe in what I find in myself not what ignorant people might project to me. Whether they project good and beautiful onto me or hard and negative, it is still not mine.

No matter what, I must go within with love, understanding and patience for my self in my humanity and myself on my path. She shows me how to do this by having me feel when I do it for others and then bring that feeling home so I know how it feels to do it for myself. She communicated this with so much love that I was filled with it and tears streamed down my face. (Sometimes when I feel ‘full’ my eyes overflow)

She leads me through these scenes by the hand showing me times when people project their own anger out and how not to accept it, how to be a strong, loving presence. I am not quite understanding her or maybe not quite able to hear what she is saying on this point about being a strong presence in my own life. I am so thirsty for this, so hungry for this, what she is telling me. I feel like full understanding is just at the edge of my fingertip’s reach. I can see the light of it, I can sense its presence, but I need to take one more tiny little step to be able to grab it and hold it. Because this experience was so emotional for me, I was a little choked up and the tears were flowing. I noticed during this time that I had interlaced my fingers tightly and my body was tense, so I consciously relaxed.

She brought me back to my heart center. She sat down and placed my head in her lap and caressed my brow. With each caress she eased my mind. She placed her hand on my heart and offered me healing. She says “Little one, it is time to let go all the hurt. It is time to let go all the fear. ” I see myself as a little girl and I am curled up on her lap and she is holding me and rocking me and crooning to me. I felt her loving me and my tears flowed until finally I felt some ease. I stayed with her like this for a long while.

As I thanked her I felt such a rush of gratitude flood through me. I had my hands in prayer position saying ‘namaste’ and thanking her. She placed her hands on my hands, brought them to her lips and kissed my fingertips then smiled at me. She said “you are welcome”, kisses my forehead and leaves.

I was really able to concentrate and follow through with what she was showing me, especially when I was in her arms receiving healing and love. I was able to stay with that, be in that moment for a long time.

Day 3 - 3/15/06

The door is a lovely deep dark green. There were lots of rainbow lights in the room all around me. When the Mother came to me she had a ‘light’ aura, like a light was shining behind her. Her hair was long and curly and she looked kinda average, like a human being. We sat and she held my hands as I asked if she would be with me and help me on my journey. She said “Of course! And as many times as you ask, that many times I will say Of course!” As I sat there focusing on the exchange of energy between us, my mind jumped to the future, not being here now. I got back to it as soon as this happened, more easily than before, and continued to focus on the exchange. Just feeling it flow through and around me.

What is the first thing…? She takes my hands and stands up with me and we rise above everything. I look down on the earth. We are close enough to see details, but far enough away to not be involved in the details. She tells me this is how I have to live my life. To be aware of what is going on around me, for the most part, but be far enough away (detached) from it that I am not involved in it when it doesn’t serve me or others to be so. Detached enough so that I don’t have the little heart glitches or clenches that happen sometimes for me when I get pulled into believing I am a part of the drama.

I ask her how do I get this detachment? If I remind myself repeatedly of ‘I am not attached/it doesn’t matter/it is not mine’ am I staying detached or am I denying my feelings? Sometimes it feels hard to know. She tells me to have my feelings, they are my feelings. Have my feelings, acknowledge them, then give them to her and she will take them. If I try not to have the feelings at all, then that is denying, and if I get caught up in the feelings and drama, that is not detachment. Having and acknowledging the feelings, knowing they are there and owning them is important for growth and understanding. Turning the feelings over to her is releasing attachment to them and their drama, developing detachment.

She has me practice this with her now by recalling my feelings around an incident earlier in the week. I recalled the feelings and held them in my heart, naming them. I was standing in front of the Mother and she held a little drawstring bag. As I sent the feelings out of my heart to her, she stuffed them in this bag. I kept sending and sending and she kept stuffing, until I had no more to send. She then tied the full bag tightly and knotted it securely. The bag began to float and she let it go. With light in our hands, we sent the bag full of my hurt feelings out into the universe to be transformed. She then placed her hand on my heart and filled the space where the hurt was with her love. I felt all of this very intensely in my body as it happened. I stayed for a long time just receiving. My mind popped off to future a couple times, but I brought it back with my breathing easily enough.

Anything else…? You are loved! You are truly loved, loved in a way not involving co-dependence. Know that love and trust that love. That’s the kind of love that is quiet, doesn’t make a fanfare, it just is. It has no agenda but to exist. That is the love that is there for you to receive. Know that you are loved, you are special, you are God. At this point we sang my ‘Affirmation Song’ together and that was very cool!

Day 4 - 3/16/06

I expected this to be very interesting, since I have never had a conscious relationship with Buddha before. Although I have had a very close and special relationship with the Blessed Mother, and even Jesus, I have not worked with anyone else in this way. So, this will be new territory for me.

Looking into Buddha’s eyes, they felt very wise, and I felt a sensation as if the warmth of his eyes went through my eyes and straight down into my heart. I could feel it touching my heart. As I looked into his eyes, I was reminded of Samyama, as if to give me a frame of reference for feeling the love and sweetness of the Buddha. Samyama is able to project that loving and sweetness and I have felt it.

There is a little fun moment here. I can see his aura as spots and streamers of colored light that are dynamic, moving. They reach out like tentacles and encompass me, surrounding me in his light so that we end up being surrounded in a multicolored cocoon together, for a moment. I feel safe and calm and relaxed. A feeling of peacefulness settles over me as the visual aspects of the light dissipate and I can again see the surroundings.

I see a beam of light connecting us heart to heart, pulsing with my heartbeat. I just sit for a while, watching that beam of light pulsing between us. Interestingly enough, this feels almost qualitatively different from the Mother. With the Mother, I felt the softness as if I was little and being hugged to warm soft bosoms and belly. With Buddha it is more… not intellectual, maybe masculine? Still a quality of enormous love, but more… love in action than love in stillness. Although I am not really sure what that means in this second. This sensation feels very clear like crystal, as if all clarity is here. Although I can feel it, I can’t see it yet.

He reaches out and puts his hands on my head as I bow in front of him. I ask about the most important thing…? He’s laughing and he has been kind of laughing the whole time here, and it feels good, no way offensive. He chuckles and says I need to practice more self-discipline. I give in to self-indulgence far too often. I must practice strict self-discipline until it becomes habit not effort. I must deal with how my ‘self’ rebels against this practice and only then will I be able to clear out those blocks of resistance. Taking control of my life, my discipline, being strong and a little on the stringent side, say by having a strict diet for a while will push me forward. With these practices I will sincerely throw myself in the way of meeting those things in me that need to be cleared. (can’t clear what you don’t see/feel/know) Because… these are the things that are blocking me from my own enlightenment.

I can feel the clamor in me begin at these statements of strict discipline and diet and no self-indulgence. I am just noticing that I feel this clamor and recognize it. It is and OLD acquaintance, this clamor. Buddha says that that complaint that I feel beginning inside, way down deep, that feels like it is coming from the spleen/lower 3 chakras, is only the clamor/noise. It is not serving me at all but holding me back. I must get in touch with that feeling, own it, acknowledge and describe the thoughts underneath that feeling and this will free me. Also, I must write it all down and use RoHun.

Anything else…? I need to know my own strength.

As I sit and just commune with him, I feel as if my heart chakra is being stretched from the inside out. It is a physical sensation of pressure, cold, stretching… very odd. I have a sense of his hands in there, pulling and stretching and gently massaging. My heart center is being filled with energy and the more it stretches, the more it is filled with energy and healing.

Now I see myself wandering through my meadow. I am walking among the wildflowers, picking them. I am just enjoying the beauty of the day and the flowers and the moment. I stay here a while, feeling gratitude.

Day 5 - 3/17/06

I see my meadow with the tree and the stone bench under it. I feel the textures of the tree, grass and bench with my hands and the coolness of the grass on my feet. Buddha is here waiting for me. I feel his love and goodness as I approach and as I kneel in front of him, he touches the side of my face and looks into my eyes with so much compassion, caring and understanding that my heart overflows as do my eyes. I ask for his help and he says “We have always been with you, just waiting for the moment when you were ready for our guidance in this conscious way.”

I just basked awhile in this. Then he chuckles and says in a very deep voice; “You are very beautiful, little one. Your light is very bright and clear”. I feel as if something inside me is being peeled away through the portal of the open lotus, which is my heart center. My heart center feels very warm and vibrating and intense! I look at him and his 3^rd eye is alight. He sends it out to mine and I feel his light penetrate causing my vibration to shift and begin the movement toward alignment with the vibration of the Avatars. This is another step along my path to enlightenment.

What must I know…? I must own my divinity; own my differentness from the unaware ones and with compassion walk among them, whole within myself. They may or may not accept my wholeness. Some may feel supported and encouraged by it and some may feel threatened by it and try to attack it. No matter what anyone else does, as long as I stay strong in my wholeness, I am safe and protected. As he is telling me this I get a taste of the feeling of knowing my wholeness WITHOUT better than/less than feelings interfering. It is very moving to feel this. I breathe it in deeply and let it fill my entire being saying “Yes! I accept!”

What else should I know… he tells me I will know whatever I need to know, whenever I need to now it, and to trust this completely. I am to listen closely to my own words that I give to others. Those words will help me understand where I have been, where I am now, and where I am going.

I was very moved by this meditation.

Summary

I looked at each of the Eight Fold Path and I see that Right Mindfulness and Right Concentration are the first that I think I need the most work on. Then next is Right Effort, but now that I think more on it, this one should be first . Of course, they all need work, but those are the ‘Big 3’.

They are very clear and verbose with their answers. They both seem to be telling me almost the same things. I received a lot of healing in the meditations this week. I am very please with my progress and my concentration as well as the information I received.